Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
It has been recently brought to my attention tat with each entry I sound increasingly depressed. So therefore I am nw going 2 make an effort 2 sound jovial! (Easier said than done). Many ppl like 2 make up imaginary agony n angst, a fine example being those Korean n Japanese dramas, n probably myself, nw that I think of it. I, n my life, am not as dismal, dark, n damp as I make it sound. Things r actually going pretty fine. Except 4 1 or 2 slight bumps, which I'll not bore u with details of. Pick up any magazine or book, walk into any school art exhibition, n u'll see hw much ppl like 2 focus on e gloomier side of things. Read e national geographic, coral reefs in danger, e terrors of cocaine, child prostitution- articles filled with bleak words leap up from e page. Switch on e television, watch a movie. Sob stories, sob stories, n more sob stories. I think it takes so much more of a genius 2 fill others with joy rather than tears. So much more skill goes into a picture or a piece of art that possesses e power 2 instill in others a sense of wonderment n bliss, than one only capable of bringing horror n gloom. How much more brilliance goes into a piece of writing that cn uplift us into another realm. Much easier isn’t it, 2 make a reader cry. Much easier isn’t it, 2 win an Oscar with yet another sob story.
ME signed off at 3:14 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
26th entry
I spent a lot of time digging out tis quote so u all better read it. N while u r reading it dn’t make stupid comments such as tat u’ll call a bomoh 2 exorcise it.
What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneness, and say, “This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned- and you with it, dust of the dust!” Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘ Never have I heard anything more divine”? -Friedrich Nietzsche
Dn’t u regret some things u’ve done in ur life? I wish I could say tat I wld do e exact same things if I could go back, but I can’t. I regret saying things tat should never have left my mouth. I regret keeping quiet when saying anything would have been better. I regret hurting people who dn’t deserve to be hurt. I regret not being able to be the person I would have liked to b today. I regret not being able to say that I don’t regret.
